Aye, sea turtles!

Busy

Glenn is busy..

Monday work, tuesdays work, wednesday LG, thursday, Tkd, Friday rest..

hopefully i can keep everything in schedule.. parents dun kill me for being so busy even though they are the one who wants me to get a job.. people to stop discouraging me with my job, and people to support me in what i am doing instead.. but i won't be discouraged.. He will tell me whether i am being too busy for him, when i am too busy for him.. i will sleep less, seek more, exercise same~ LOL!

Tkd demo, still haven't finish practising..

OR, still haven't completed the land,

Feelings, although i have let go, feelings have not faded.. wonder why.. but will not dwell on it after this 1 min.. woots~

concerned for Dennis~ pray pray~

concerned for Cyril~ Pray Pray~

Thinking of my body~ pray pray~

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 4:32 AM,
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Man By Choice

The decision to be a man.. Many forget to make that decision before they say that they are..

Many say that they are, when they are not..

Many see themselves as 1 when they do not really know what it really is..

Yesterday, what Sharlene said seriously shook me.. It made me think.. What have i been doing? Why have I been letting stupid feelings get control of me? Shouldn't He be in control?

Devoted..

Why am i Devoted to other people instead of him? Is there a need?

Why am i trying to open my eyes when all i need is faith? No need for my own sight in this run.. This marathon will last for as long as it gets.. And there is onli one true way.. Not one that we can see.. It will only open if we let our faith guide us..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 4:32 PM,
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Farewell party~

haha.. yesterday was North A farewell.. no photos from me.. my phone not for photos~ xD

Two is better than one..

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Haha~ this song is nice alrights? xD

sorry guys yesterday for giving the sian face, coz my feet is wet and i very disturbed by that.. my shoes were killing me.. haha..

the food were ok~ think that its quite nice.. xD although very little and the sotong and prawn onli last part then we find.. HAHA! dunno who brought it back, but JY!!

hmm.. later going swensens eat~ xD

Heard from Brandon that he ran 15km.. somehow i feel very inferior suddenly.. haha.. i know i should not feel that way.. but i think i want go run liao~ haha.. i so weak lerh..

gonna run, and swim often!! xD try my best..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 6:31 PM,
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Prom night~

Yesterday was prom night 2009..

Well.. starting was obviously super sian~ coz a lot of prize presentation and tributes which are kind of boring~ haha! Sorry organising committee~ xD

then when they open up the dance floor, woots, i run out eat xD

The disco sessions were super great, although all my close friends very conservative and think i am crazy~ HAHA! but prom night supposed to have fun derh, although my dance partner could not make it at the last min, it's ok ba.. i dance finish lerh whole shirt all wet.. coz i jump like a kangaroo~ xD

Then, lucky draw i win~ Swensens $10 voucher! xD Brandy, XY and I actually planning to go Swensens to eat ice cream buffet~ xD

I over there jump up when I heard my number! haha.. then i cannot find my ticket then lucky Yankae found it on the floor for me! HAHA THANK GOD!! Love Yan Kae loads man~ My Gay Partner~ First 1 somemore! xD ok.. cannot disturb him lerh~

photo from racial harmony day this year~ So long ago.. haha! The flower guys~ from left to right

Guy in beige: Jia Jun!
Horny, Pervert, straightforward, easily excited great friend! xD Dun so horny lerh! pimples will pop out more~

Guy in White and white: Me~
Great Guy~

Guy in Grey and white shirt: Wesley
Haha~ LeProGuy~ will miss your nonsense and disturbing of others.. heh.. your the only person in class that i willing to share my personal troubles with.. haha.. although you nv really give advice, but i know that you are here for me even when i am in times of trouble, haha.. You always say that you are of very little value in the class~ but well, to me, you have the highest value! xD Although you going off Indonesia~ You may say that i will not miss you.. I did not say anything coz i myself do not know.. You say that you are of the lowest value, but it is only true when you admit it.. Haha.. I remember you always telling me.. Be a good gamer, and well, i always fail to manage my temper while playing Dota with you guys.. HAHA But, i will still try.. Dunno if your gonna come back from Indonesia, but you will forever be my treasured friend.. You are the one who taught me how to play badminton, you were the one who encouraged me to play and get a racquet, you are the one who helped me win the interhouse badminton! You are the one who taught me proper manners in fine dining, got me a new racquet for my birthday after i lost mine, and last but not least, told me that i am not alone in the class.. You seriously touched me with everything you did, and my life will not be the same without you.

Guy in Green: Ding Yang
Yoyo~ we had a bad start in knowing each other huh? i still remember you kinda despised me last time, and also kinda dun like me outreaching in class.. haha! yeap, gonna miss your sarcasm and remember to play badminton alright~ xD

Guy in Black and White: Yan Kae
Gay Partner~ xD Haha~ i know you kinda hate my sarcasm, and me touching you~ xD but haha.. will seriously miss you.. You are the soft hearted guy who always never fail to be a good friend.. i will really miss you.. always giving me chance in singles, always acting cute online, and well.. i will never forget you..

Guy in White and Black: Jun Hao
Yoyo~ i know you kinda scared of me after i shared with you how God fearing I am, but well, i pray that you will come to fear the same God as me.. i still remember you were always sitting with me after recess, and always being there.. haha.. i remember the funny way you move, and Jy for your future endeavours~

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 4:31 PM,
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I have to get my being right

Hmm.. yesterday kenna sunburned.. today have prom night.. great..

yong qing~ u sleep without discussing games!!! how?? i think i do it myself lerh ba..

I think i need to get my being right first.. i seriously find so many flaws in my character.. and God, i know ur telling me to change.. i get angry at my friends when i play a game.. yep.. thx jian hao for telling me reminding me that, getting angry wont do anything in the end.. and we have to be still mindful of God even when i play..

Thanks brandon for reminding me to be accountable.. and thank you God for giving me the courage to account.. haha.. i seriously feel so much more in control of my situation after i have accounted..

Yesterday, went to dance practice at 8.30.. they 9.30 then start.. and they paired me up with wee chin.. hmm.. i really dunno.. i felt very confused.. i very discontented with what they did, and i did the most stupid thing.. Leave.. Seriously Glenn!! what you thinking? even though they pair u up with a person nobody in her class wants? why did you do that? is that the best decision you could make? Run away from the problem? i have to wake up my idea.. i should have told them nicely that i did not want to do so.. instead of just walking off in anger.. God.. this is really what kind of problems in my character that i really need to change.. i always make wrong decisions

the previous time i made a wrong decision caused so much trouble.. and obviously, Bridget was right.. I was not thinking with my brains.. i did not put u in mind when i did all those.. I am so sorry.. I am coming back to you.. Lord, change me for the better.. I no longer want to be the insensitive, self-centered and bad tempered person i used to be.. I want to share your love with the people..

i remember i told brandon once that my reason to outreach was to share the joy i found in God.. Yes! i have a lot of joy in God.. God made me happy when i am covering my face in sadness.. God lifted my hands, got me up and wiped away my tears.. God stopped me from making many mistakes in my life.. God gave me happiness and teachings that i will never forget.. thats why i want others to experience this as well..

God.. i commit everything to you..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 9:33 PM,
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O.o?

hehe~ today taekwondo.. go back with bad flexibility.. go kenna pushed.. haha.. understand that i no longer of any high standard~ but haha.. still gonna try my best for CCA Orientation Demo xD hmm..

Kam Gong Poomsae.. LOL! nv learn before.. better try hard hard~ dun mess up.. heh..

the world in me is eating me up~ gotta kick it out~ it's gonna leave me as an empty shell filled with despair, without God.. Gotta kick it out~ haha.. Glenn~ jia you~ dun give in..

Dun let the world control you.. heh.. gonna kick it out~ its going away~ haha.. Glenn can do it! xD

sian this thursday have to go take NYAA.. still remember all the crap that i did just i get it.. now i dun really want it that much..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 5:46 AM,
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North F1

I join racing lerh~ F1 xD.. hmm.. i hereby declare.. i am gonna stop playing Dota with my classmates unless it is a special occasion.. Seriously i get angry while playing almost every single time..

super bad for my temper, and image of a Christian.. I feel extremely terrible each time i play with them.. I get angry, I get frustrated, and the worst thing is they shoot me saying things about God when i feel irritated.. Yep.. That irritated me a lot..

I dunno.. seems like to them, God is something that they can use to shoot me.. Is that so? God is everything to me.. You shoot God, shows how much u respect me as a friend too..

haha.. i sound so emo.. heh.. i not emo.. just thinking how i will react if one day my classmates start saying.. "Glenn.. So God teach u to be so hot-tempered when playing game? God teach you to get frustrated easily? God teach you to be so negative when we are losing?" i seriously dunno how angry i will get..

i declare i am not gonna play with them when it's an off the counter match.. I should not torture myself this way.. haha.. i feel so tired of getting angry.. God.. let me get angry only for things that anger you, and not for selfish reasons..

I guess i need to grow.. Restructured.. New CG members.. New leader.. New Sheep, New Shepherd.. everything feels very new.. but i feeling sick recently.. haha.. getting tired very easily..

is smth goin wrong? Bridget.. you promised u gonna talk to me.. then nv in the end.. I wanted to say everything.. haha.. needed you to lend a listening ear.. It's very tiring to keep things away from myself..

i have to stop holding on to stupid wishes.. haha.. God, Change Me~ Give me strength to resist temptations~

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 8:30 AM,
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The IDK Convo~

CareRoLine says:
idk
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
lets now talk about IDK
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
IDK is a very stupid guy..
CareRoLine says:
haha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
He likes to reply people with IDK
CareRoLine says:
guy meh i tot girl
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
then for his school homework,
All he wrote for each question was..
u guess?
xD
CareRoLine says:
idk
hahahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
CORRECT!
see?
u not so dumb..
CareRoLine says:
hahhaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
yep..
CareRoLine says:
YAY
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
all he wrote was IDK..
well..
CareRoLine says:
his name oso
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
and his teacher asked him..
IDK, ar IDK.. whats wrong with you, i oso IDK...
HAHA!
CareRoLine says:
hahahaha
funny
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
story haven't finish~
CareRoLine says:
today bedtime story
lawls
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
but IDK how to continue
haix..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
u try continue?
xD
CareRoLine says:
i oso dk
haha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
hmm
then IDK asked his parents..
why you give me this name IDK?
His parents were stunned.. coz they oso dun really know..
Then *flashback*
xD
CareRoLine says:
hahahha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
During birth, the nurse ask IDK's parents..
whats the name gonna be?
both said IDK..
coz they totally dumb..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
The nurse took it for real,
coz she oso dumb..
CareRoLine says:
ai yo
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
thats why IDK is called IDK
HAHAHA!
CareRoLine says:
tis story th people all dumb de
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
yep
xD

CareRoLine says:
haahahha
sad for them
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
dumb people should sleep early~
CareRoLine says:
im not so i should not
hahahha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
ur naturally dumb~
CareRoLine says:
no
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
u admit it yourself with your display picture..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
i change lor
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
eee
thats so sian..
CareRoLine says:
bleah
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
eye pain..
CareRoLine says:
nvm i lyk tis more
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
yea
coz u really are..
CareRoLine says:
idk
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
oh yea..
lets continue story..
IDK finally understood why his name was so..
Then he went around his school telling his friends the story..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
but he realised something
you guess?
xD
CareRoLine says:
idk
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
He realised dunno his friends
CareRoLine says:
huh
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
coz people think he very dao..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
when people ask for his name,
he say.. IDK
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
then people think he anti social..
so he no friends~
CareRoLine says:
sad
so lonely
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
poor IDK nv had any friends..
One day, he went to hope church! xD
CareRoLine says:
yaya
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
hmm..
CareRoLine says:
yay *
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
sidetrack abit..
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
maybe i can post this on my blog
xD
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
i wan to post th conversation
funny
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
At hope church,
many people thought IDK very dao derh..
why? because i already told you..
CareRoLine says:
idk
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
so.. his caregroup members accepted him for who he is..
and one day God spoke into his life,
and well.. now he is a very cool, hip and nice guy
xD
he got baptised,
changed his name to NIK
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
what is NIK?
CareRoLine says:
idk
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
Nick?
Nicholas?
CareRoLine says:
now i know ?
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
YES!
CareRoLine says:
hahaha
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
wa u so smart
HAHAHA!
CareRoLine says:
HAHAHA
{Zenite]‡‡Zeta‡‡--Glenn says:
hahaha
the end~

Woots weird convo aye? xD

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 9:22 AM,
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YoYo~ Back to this dead blog~ xD

i was too afraid and that was why i had to let go.. This fear will only destroy me..

sorry if you think that i was lying to you.. No.. I was not.. The decision was not easy to make..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 5:55 PM,
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~ xD

Letting go is never easy.. haha..

when will i stop feeling this way? i don't know..

When i started feeling this way? i don't care..

all i know now is i want this feeling to go away~ xD

God, you told me to do this.. Thank you for helping me make this decision so much easier.. If you did not tell me so, i guess i will be clinging on like a crazed man.. haha..

I dunno what will happen, but i am secure in your hands, and i know you have a better plan for me..

hmm.. it's no longer about me, but it's about you..

i wanna let it go, you oso dun care~ shows a lot.. What i was fearing really happened.. I was only there to slow you down.. Nothing i do will ever change the fact that it was gonna happen.. what i did yesterday only shortened our suffering and brought what was inevitable closer..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 4:44 PM,
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Hold me in your arms

Heart Of Worship
When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than just a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus

Its all about you
Jesus

*************

Hold me in your everlasting arms.. Lord.. Many times feelings may have failed.. And i know you are holding me in your ever strong arms lord.. i know the pain of someone leaving your arms.. the harder you hold on to, the faster the person slips away.. I know the heart break it will cause and Father.. i truly want to say sorry for those many times that i have left your embracing arms and spit at your face..

So much i have done.. but you are still opening your arms wide for me.. No matter who may slip through, you are always here for us to come back.. like a child who throws a tantrum, runs away, and comes back at the end of the day, knowing you are their only solution.. And lord.. I truly declare that you are my only solution for whatever problems it may be.. It may be a broken heart, it may be an empty hole someone leaves in my heart when she leaves..

I know how terrible it feels and i truly fear it all.. everything feels so familiar.. its like living back in the past.. I really want to have faith.. I really want to trust.. I feel so insecure.. I have made the decision.. and i will live through with it.. No matter how insecure i may be.. there may be times when i have to let go.. and i know that clinging on will never be the answer..

I feel so scared.. haha.. but i have accepted this with an accepting heart.. i may not be one who is willing to give everything i have for this, and i am very imperfect~ but no matter what the decision is, i will support it..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 4:05 PM,
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Consume me Lord..

Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Father, i commit my life to you now.. All that I have now, was given to me by you.. you have become poor for me.. I may be sickly right now, but i know that you will continue to provide me with the everlasting strength only you can provide.. I may be weak, I may be tempted, but lord, do not let me lose faith in you.. Consume me lord..

Your light shines the brightest in my life.. No matter what others may say about me, I know that you will continue to lead me in the right direction.. No matter how weak i may be right now, my soul continues to cry out for you.. Only you can truly provide me with everything that i will ever need..

When faith steps in, logic no longer makes sense.. and anything is possible for him who believes.. Lord, continue to hold me in your strong arms.. I know that you will not forsake me.. Be my rock.. The support that i hold on to clinging onto my dear life..

Many people may fail, even i may fail myself.. but i know that you will never fail me.. Only you are everlasting.. Lord.. I commit my everything into your hands now.. Put me in the right direction and do not let me fall..

deadguy

inverted a turtle at 1:44 AM,
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"Aye! Sea Turtles!
Name: Glenn Lee
DOB: 31.10.93
School: Chung Cheng Yishun
Location: Singapore
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